July - August - September

After two years of emotionally unstable mood swings and frustration, I realized what triggers my erratic behavior…

The months of July, August, and September all have significant days associated with Darryl. The 20th of the first two months mark his passing and our anniversary. His birthday is in September.

I have not been able to create or focus. I have been in survival mode…which means I have been traveling to mask the pain and void of his absence.

Going forward I will be more aware of these months and shut down any activities that require me to be focused, creative, or organized. I will create a space for me to sit in my grief and honor the thoughts, feelings, and emotions attached to my grieving process.

Two years. It seems like forever and also yesterday. That's what grief does to you. It makes your relationship with time very unclear. I literally go from feeling like I have to cherish every moment to feeling like we only have a little time left and trying to do all things at once.

Anywho. Happy August. See you in September 😘