Rage

That's how I feel when exhaustion, frustration, and helplessness all seem to be crushing down on me at once.

When I can't find peace and can't get any sleep - all I feel is rage. I literally want to release all these emotions in the loudest way.

I want the air around me to FEEL these emotions and suck it all out of me so that I can finally get some sleep, rest, peace.

But I bottle it all in and let the tears fall. This is my biggest rebellion. Quiet release of emotions. Tears down my cheek. Getting the long overdue release that my heart and body needs, in a way that doesn't disturb or upset anyone around me. Holding it all back because the world doesn't need any more destruction and anger. Quietly releasing my pain one tear drop at a time...hoping it strips me of this feeling and cleanses my soul so that I can rediscover my peace.